My husband had a fairly routine surgery last Friday. He’s doing well—back to work, though still recuperating. I thought I knew him well (and I’m sure I know him better than anyone else at this point). However, when the surgeon came out to the waiting room to show me results of the surgery, the photos from his laparoscopic surgery showed me parts of my hubby I had never seen before. I saw his insides…way down deep into the place his bones and organs reside.
My hubby and I are best friends. We do almost everything together. After twenty-two years of marriage and life together, we pretty much know what the other is going to say in different circumstances. We can talk about almost anything. We enjoy working together, playing together, eating together and worshipping together. We share this adventure of life with You, Lord. We truly know each other. But those photos made me realize that You know us better than anyone else ever could—no matter how close we think we are to someone.
Lord, You thought of us and made a one-of-a-kind spirit and knit all those sinews, bones, organs, DNA and muscles together to house a unique soul before we were even conceived in our mothers’ wombs. You know every tiny thought, secret, attitude which no one else sees—long before it is voiced or even brought to our attention. You KNOW us-with all our imperfections and sins—and You still love us! You love us enough to have Jesus die for us so we could be holy as He is—so we could be pure and able to live in Your presence forever and ever. Lord, search all parts of me and help me take out anything which hinders a life with You. Thank You for Your undeserved amazing forgiveness and grace. And though I can’t see You with my physical eyes, Lord, help me see more and more of who You really are!
“For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.” Hebrews 4:12-13
“Search me, O God, and know my heart: test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139:23-24
“What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.” Philippians 3:7-9
Lord God, do You see Jesus in me?