Heavenly Father, I didn’t ask for this amazing answer to prayer but You gave me a glorious overwhelming glimpse yesterday. It happened to be 26 years ago that my first husband Steve died yesterday. Most years Jan 13 comes and goes quietly and softly but I felt moved to post one of his hundreds of poems on Facebook in honor of his heavenly birthday. When I went to pick the poem out, I thought I would be posting one on death and heaven; instead You led me to pick one out on finding new life in the Lord. It was so appropriate after all he did and wrote about life with You. I added a simple line above the post that stated “He’s still pointing people to the Lord.”
Little did I know, You would show me how much has happened since that poem was written. Never had I known anyone who lived so fully yet suffered so deeply in 37 years of life. About 2-3 years before his death, he told me he was going to stop praying for healing. I was shocked and asked “Why?” He said You told him if he was willing to go through this, it would help many people in the future. He was willing. And he did truly suffer. Lord, You were faithful to give him what he needed through the horrific times. You gave him visions and dreams to encourage him. Some of those included actual people who would be helped in the future. You even allowed him to “die” and go before Your throne where he had the choice to come back and be put on life support or stay. Oh, how he wanted to stay—but out of love, he chose to come back to live another important year. (That’s a whole other story.)
Yesterday, my pastor was preaching on “The Power of Suffering” and it might as well been about Steve. You gave me a glimpse of the lives that have been and are still being impacted because of his suffering—family members, church family, and a huge amount of other people that You showed him in a vision including specific people he had never met (some who hadn’t even been born yet). I was the one who got to see some of these specific lives be transformed by Jesus Christ.
Father, thank You for this glimpse of what a single life surrendered out of love for You and others can do throughout eternity. I don’t want to waste whatever amount of time I might have left here on this earth. Help me surrender my moments to You so You can use them for Your eternal plan.
“Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed.” 1 Peter 4:12-13
“If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.” 1 Corinthians 13:3
Father, show me what I need to surrender to You out of love…