It seems like everyday I have to struggle in some form with this question. As I bring all my hurts, plans, dreams, mistakes…As I come to You in prayer letting You know how I feel about whatever is going on, I have actually found I am wrestling with the same issue: Is this part of Your will or mine?
Hurts– Lord, You know me better than anyone. You know how easily I get wounded. It is easy to come running to tell you about my latest encounter with someone who knew or maybe didn’t now how badly they had hurt me. How easy it is to spout off the pain that was wrongfully inflicted. How tempting to stay in that hurt and let it escalate out of control. You patiently listen to me spew about my very real hurts…then You remind me how Jesus reacted when He was hurt by His friends and enemies. He forgave them and prayed for them. Lord, perhaps these very hurts I want to wallow in are an opportunity You can let Your Holy Spirit show through me. Perhaps it is Your will to let my response be through Christ to draw someone closer to You…
Plans– Father, as I plan out my day and try to accomplish everything as quickly as I can, I have to fight against feeling resentful when an interruption comes. Don’t they realize what important things I have to do? When I stop to listen to You, Your Spirit gently reminds me that my plans will accomplish little, but Your plans make a difference eternally. My plans may seem critical- but Your plans are life-changing. Let me be ready and willing to drop my little plans for Yours.
Mistakes– Lord, You know I hate it when I realize I have made a mistake; when I missed an opportunity; when I reacted wrongly; when I misjudged someone’s motives…Lord, it is all too easy to beat myself up and want to quit trying so it won’t happen again. Yet, how often my mistake has resulted in a new awareness of how weak I am; how much I need You; a new humbleness before You and others. You make no mistakes, Lord, yet You take my mistakes and turn them into something new and glorious as I bring them before You.
Dreams– Father, I think of the dreams and goals I have had in my life. They seemed so great and lofty at one time. You have taken my huge visions and whittled away all the empty fluff. Lord, as I try to live by Your mission for my life (to love You and others) it is amazing what incredible power there is in doing little things with You- like enjoying You on a quiet walk, a spontaneous loving conversation with a stranger in a check-out line, dancing with children, hugging and praying with someone hurting…
Lord, it is a good fight. Help me keep dying to my own will and truly be willing to do Your will with rejoicing.
“Going a little farther, He fell with His face to the ground and prayed, ‘My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from Me. Yet not as I will, but as You will.’” Matthew 26:39
“Jesus replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’” Matthew 23:37-39
“Then He said to them all: ‘IF anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me. For whoever loses his life for Me will save it.” Luke 9:23-24
Your Prayer Prompt-
Most Holy Father, what of my own will do I need to let go of today?