Heavenly Father,

The older I get, the faster my life seems to be going! I spent a lot of time this weekend with family members from near and far. It seems like just yesterday I was holding my babies in my arms…and now I am holding their babies (and even their baby’s baby) in my arms. When I was younger, I thought I had all the time in the world to do whatever I wanted. Yet now, I know I’ve used up probably two-thirds of my time here! I’m not worried about dying because I know I will finally be Home with You, Lord…but I am much more aware of how I’m spending the time I have left here on this earth. I sure want to do all I can to help bring Your Kingdom here on earth as it is in Heaven. It’s crazy that You actually allow me to be a part of Your kingdom-building!

It certainly causes me to prioritize how I’m spending my time. Am I doing what You want me to? Do my regular activities bring glory and honor to You? Am I making anyone hungry and thirsty for more of You? Are there things in my life that are taking up too much time that are not going to make a difference eternally? Am I spending my time simply loving You and others more deeply? Do I take time to tell others of the wonderful things You do? Am I studying and sharing Your word, Your truth with others? Am I truly letting You rule my life (or am I at least getting better at surrendering?) Do I spend all my prayer time telling You what I want, or do I listen to what You want? (Your way is always better!!)

Father, I know when I breathe my last breath I am ready because I have no doubt I will live forever in Your presence. Yet there are so many here on earth who still don’t realize they are not complete without You. Whatever time I have left, Father, help me make it count for eternity. I don’t want to see anyone left behind. Even if it’s only tiny seeds that I sow, let my life be fruitful for Your kingdom. Let my short bit of time shoot far into forever!
“Again, it (the kingdom of heaven) will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his wealth to them. To one he gave five bags of gold, to another two bags, and to another one bag, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. The man who had received five bags of gold went at once and put his money to work and gained five bags more. So also, the one with two bags of gold gained two more. But the man who had received one bag went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master’s money. After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. The man who had received five bags of gold brought the other five. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with five bags of gold. See, I have gained five more.’
His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’
“The man with two bags of gold also came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘you entrusted me with two bags of gold; see, I have gained two more.’
His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’
“Then the man who had received one bag of gold came. ‘Master,’ he said, ‘I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid and went out and hid your gold in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.’
His master replied, ‘You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.
‘So take the bag of gold from him and give it to the one who has ten bags. For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’” Matthew 25:14-30

October 7, 2015

Heavenly Father,


It is one of the saddest sights to watch someone walk away from their chance at new life through Jesus Christ…especially after I’ve poured my heart out trying to help them see what they can have through a life lived with You…especially when I see them walking back into a hopeless destructive situation. What a joy when someone sees the choice of Eternal Life in front of them and takes it!!!! It’s like sharing the greatest treasure ever discovered with so much more available than we could ever use! There’s so much to share – we could share it with the whole world and we will never use it up! It holds the answers to all things. It endows us with peace, joy, love, wisdom, contentment and an everlasting life with You. We will never be alone again. We will never fight a battle again without You. It is a treasure that grows as we learn to fully live in all its glory! How remarkable that You- the God Almighty, Maker of all, Source of Love, Creator of universes- would love us so dearly and be intimately involved in all aspects of our lives!!!  So how sad it is when someone walks away from the greatest treasure ever offered.


I can recall times I just wanted to shake someone so they will open their eyes to see what You have freely given them! If only we could chose for them…but You didn’t create us that way. It has to be a choice from each individual heart. You could have designed us to worship and honor You without thought. But I guess You wanted it to be true love and worship which can only freely be given by our choice. No one else can make that choice for us. Oh! How I wish I could!! Every single one of my friends and family, coworkers, neighbors, strangers, people I pass on the street…and the vilest offenders I hear about on the news would all have their lives made new in Jesus Christ! What a joy when someone I have prayed for makes that choice!!! What heartbreak when someone makes a choice to walk away from Jesus and live life their old way.


Lord, You know even more than I, how sad a sight that is… to watch someone walk away from yet another chance to turn to You and receive all You desire to give them. Yet it is Your desire that every single person come to their own personal decision to live with and for You through Jesus. So though You let them walk away, You still patiently wait for the day they will come to You. I will not give up. I will keep on praying for the ones who are walking away. May the day come when they will know the unspeakable joy of walking with You instead of away from You. Then they will wonder like I did, why did I take so long?!!







“This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now chose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to His voice and hold fast to Him.”  Deuteronomy 30:19-20


“Jesus looked at him and loved him, ‘One thing you lack,’ He said. ‘Go and sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come and follow Me.’ At this the man’s face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth.”   Mark 10:21-22


Jesus told this story to show God’s heartache of a child walking away and then His joy of him returning.

After the young son had demanded his inheritance from his father, and walked away to another land and wasted all he had been given on wild living, he walked back to the Father’s home, hoping to be a hired hand…   “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; He ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick Bring the best robe and put it on him! Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fatted calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found. So they began to celebrate.”   Luke 15:20-23


“The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish , but everyone come to repentance…Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard, so you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men, and fall from your secure position. But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory both now and forever! Amen.” 2 Peter 3:9, 17-18




September 17, 2015

Heavenly Father,

We just had a new grandbaby born into our lives!! It’s so exciting! We’re all in love with this tiny little person! Now that he’s here, we can’t imagine life without him. His parents’ lives will never be the same again!! Yet it took a lot of intense labor to get him here! I felt so bad for my daughter-in-law who went through so much as she birthed him. It was a very difficult delivery (on those of us standing by as well!) Yet it was all worth it to hold that new life in our hands and bask in the miracle! He didn’t even exist 9 months ago! We didn’t have a clue we could all love him so much!

We had a good friend dying that same day. He was laboring as well. Friends and family were standing around supporting him also. Yet just like with my daughter-in-law, others can cheer you on…but some things you have to go through by yourself. We received a text at the exact time the baby was born that our friend had just passed through the canal of this life into the next! He, too, has new life to live! I’ve often thought that trying to explain how much someone is going to enjoy heaven is like trying to tell an unborn baby how much he’s going to like earth. We can speak to the mom’s belly and say, “You’re gonna love it here- ice cream, swimming, snowflakes on your tongue…!” But that baby is going to dig his feet in and say, “No thanks! I like it right here in Mommy’s womb! It’s warm and cozy and I have everything I need!” In a lot of ways, we don’t want to leave our comfy home of this world to experience the marvels of heaven!

Come to think of it, Lord, we don’t just labor during birth or dying. There is often a laboring to surrender our lives to You and receive eternal life through Jesus Christ. We also have to labor through a lot of trials and challenges but if we will just hold Your hand and breathe- we will find more abundant life at the end of the pain and struggle. Once we have the new life, we can barely recall the pain! Thank You, Lord, for being our labor partner. Most of all, thank You for the new life!

“A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born, she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world, So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.” John 16:21-22

“You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these things are the beginning of birth pains.” Matthew 24:6-8

“Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed.” 1 Peter 4:12-13

September 2, 2015

Heavenly Father,


We all waited with baited breath to hear the very first sermon our new preacher gave Sunday.  He couldn’t have chosen a better subject…it was about Love! His first time to preach as our minister was to remind us how important it is to love You, Lord…and to love people! That pretty much sums up our lives with You! After all, those are the two greatest commandments. If we spend our whole entire lives doing those two things, we will be living an abundant Christ-filled life! Not only will we be rich beyond measure; we will be able to bless others beyond what we could possibly do on our own.


Before we can truly love You, Lord, we have to begin to realize how much You love us. All love flows freely from You!! And I believe we will be discovering more of Your love for all eternity for there is no top or bottom or sides to Your love! It’s too good to be true that You love me despite all my flaws, weaknesses, mistakes and sin. You love me-  in spite of them. You love me so much that You gave Jesus to pay the cost of my sin, to make me holy-  so I could live with You forever! It’s so good to be true that it is a stumbling block for us. We just have to believe and accept that You love us and want us with You! It is only once we live in Your love that we can truly start loving You back! Every day, I love You more because I find so much more to love…and because You love me more than I could ever possibly love You!


There’s so much love that I can truly love others with the overflow of Your love! It never runs out or gets old. There are so many people around me who need love just as much as I do! You love me so I can share it…not hoard it. The more I share and love others, the more love You flood me with!  It’s crazy! Because Your love causes me to love others who are just as undeserving as me.  Yet Your love lives in me and gets in my heart and soul… and even my eyes. You cause me to see others how You see them…and I find myself loving them! It’s not a strings-attached-love like the world shows. It is an all-out, love-no-matter-what kind of love that comes from You! I’m so glad our new preacher had his first words be about love! I’m pretty sure that will be his last words and all the words in between! That’s what it’s all about! That’s why Jesus is the Word; the beginning and the end! He is Love poured out from You!









“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you love one another.”    John 13:34-35


“How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!”   1 John 3:1


“This is love; not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and His love is made complete in us.”  1 John 4:10-12


August 25, 2015

Heavenly Father,


I just got through making a five foot tall tepee for my soon-to-be-born grandson’s room. It will be just for décor for a while! Yet as I was making it, I couldn’t help but think of the times he might crawl into it: the first time will be to explore every little corner; maybe he will crawl into it when he just wants to be alone to look at a book; perhaps he will crawl into it when he’s made a mistake and is worried about what mom and dad might say; maybe he go there when he’s hurting and will hug a stuffed animal for comfort; perhaps he will go there to rest or dream or plan; maybe he’ll eventually invite a friend to come into his tent…I pray it will be a little safe quiet place for him- a refuge from the world.


We all need a safe quiet place we can go! I found mine a long time ago. Lord, it is with You! No matter what is going on in the world or in my life…no matter what mistake I’ve made or hurt I’ve caused…no matter how my feelings were wounded or tired I am…no matter who I’m concerned about or what guidance I need- I can crawl into my quiet place with You! Father, You are always there for me to rest in, cuddle up with, and just be quiet and still. You are always there to listen, guide, refresh, restore, renew and empower. You are always there to forgive, restore, wash me clean and set me on my feet again. It can be windy, stormy, loud, scary, and chaotic on the outside, but with You in my quiet place- there is peace, calm, strength, rejuvenation. Everything I need is always found in You.


Our grandson’s tent will eventually get torn up, knocked down or outgrown! But I pray that he finds the same indestructible quiet place I have found. I pray he discovers the same peace and love that is always waiting for him to crawl into. I pray he learns he will never outgrow You and will always need You. I pray that he longs for quiet time with You! I pray that he gets filled up in his quiet place with You so he can go out and shine out with the love of Jesus Christ wherever he goes.










“Be still and know that I am God”   Psalm 46:10a


“He makes m lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me…” Psalm 23:2-4a


“One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple. For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.”    Psalm 27:4-5





August 21, 2015

Heavenly Father,


There have been lots of good byes lately with many of the children I’ve helped care for since they were infants leaving us to go off to “big school.” One girl, whose last day was this week, kept hanging on to me on the playground, hugging me, asking me to please be her teacher just one more day! It was so hard for her to think of leaving the safety and security of what she had always known to go forward into the unknown. I know all of us feel that way at times. But life is full of goodbyes:  leaving our babies in someone else’ care to go to work, walking away from leaving our children in their first day of kindergarten, leaving friends at our old job to start another, moving away from a community of loved ones to a new place, dropping our kids off at college and saying goodbye to their daily presence in our home, walking away from the graveside for the first time…Oh my! Goodbyes can be so painful and challenging!


But life is also full of hellos! Like: gazing into the eyes of a newborn child, meeting a new teacher, falling in love, making a bond with a stranger and feeling like you’ve known them for a long time, making new friends, building relationships, staring a new school or job, moving to a new community, joining a new church, starting a new direction or career, realize your children are now amazing adults, discovering a new passion…!


Yes, life is full of hellos and goodbyes…but the more I live, the more I realize that all the relationships we have- become a part of us. We are actually never saying goodbye because we carry bits of those relationships with us wherever we go. We are all interconnected through love… Through Your love, Lord! The most beautiful thing about being connected through You is that our relationships are eternal (That means no goodbyes- just “see-you-laters!”) And we never ever have to say good bye to You, Father, for You are always with us. Life with You is one big hello as we keep discovering more of YOU!









“May the Lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other.”   Genesis 31:49b


“The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”   Deuteronomy 31:8


 “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”    Matthew 28:20b



August 12, 2015


Heavenly Father,


Don’t ask me how I end up in these situations…because I have come to realize You place me in them as needed…for Your good purposes, Lord. I got called to the scene of a major marital fight. It’s not my nature to get in the midst of someone else’s business unless asked…but many times You call me to do something that goes against my personal nature! Someone called me instead of the police…so of course, I prayed all the way to their house- not knowing what I would encounter yet trusting that You were already there and You would show me what my part was once I got there. What I found was two deeply wounded spouses yelling, trying to be heard…yet neither was hearing because they were both screaming and fighting like bitter enemies. The ongoing damage was not just inflicted on the spouses but onto the children in the midst of this horrible battle scene.


The crazy thing was, listening to each persons’ side when they were separate from each other, they each longed to be listened to and they each feared that the huge investment they had made in their marriage was for nothing…that love had failed…because they each loved so deeply but felt it was not enough…that love didn’t work. They are fairly new believers so they even questioned God’s presence. They each told me this apart from one another in almost the exact same words. It was obvious that they both love each other. It was obvious the children loved the parents. It was obvious the parents loved the children…so why and how could it escalate to such a horrible drawn out critical fight?!!! I know the answer to that! Their enemy is not one another. The real enemy is the one who stirs up hatred, division, fear, doubts. Our enemy lurks around waiting for the right moment when we are vulnerable to whisper untruths that will kill, wound and destroy.


One of the children called me because they didn’t know what else to do. It was You, Lord who sent me into the midst of this battle. As always, I discovered I was not alone. You were there and prayers were already there. Another child begged me not to leave them-  but to stay with them and pray with them. As we talked and prayed together, this child had a huge wave of peace come over them. This child said they knew You would be with them and their parents no matter what and was able to finally sleep. This battle is not over! Yet as I drove home halfway through the night, I couldn’t get worried or upset (even though I tried!) I was Your peace!  I know You are fighting the battle with them and for them! You hear the prayers of the children and each of the spouses in the crossfire, and You are fighting for them in ways they can’t even see! There are angels doing battle even as I write this to overcome the enemy attacks. It doesn’t always happen in plain sight where we see instant victory…but it is a calm peaceful intense battle raged in the heavenly places on behalf of each person involved! My part is to pray and trust!







“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”      Ephesians 5:10-12


“This is what the Lord says to you, ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. Tomorrow  march down against them…You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out and face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”     2 Chronicles 20:15b-16a,17


“As long as Moses held up his hands, The Israelites were winning, but whenever he lowered his hands, the Amalekites were winning. When Moses’ hands grew tired, they took a stone and put it under him and he sat on it. Aaron and Hur held his hands up- one on one side, one on the other- so that his hands remained steady til sunset.”  Exodus 17:11-12 (We need to hold each other up in prayer when under attack!)

August 9, 2015


Heavenly Father,



Today, I heard a really great sermon about how we need to come to church to get a huge load…overflowing…more than we can carry…of your love…and take it back out into the world to share with whoever is on our path. We can’t expect them to come to us, we need to carry Your love to them.


After the sermon, we shared communion like I’ve done almost every Sunday of my life. The tiny cups of grape juice always make me cry as I consider how they represent the blood of Jesus so lovingly poured out for me… and the miniature wafers remind me that He willingly broke His body so I could live forever with You.


That tiny cup is far too small to ever hold all the love poured out for me…and it is not just for me. Bathe me, fill me, overflow me so I can go out and share Your love with as many as possible. Then let me keep coming back for more and more of Your never-ending supply! Father, those tiny cups never run out…as long as I keep sharing!





“While they were eating, Jesus took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to His disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is My body.” Then He took the cup, gave thanks and offered it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you. This is My blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins.” Matthew 26:26-28

August 5, 2015

Glorious Heavenly Father!


I feel like a brand new mother who just gave birth…our little caterpillars metamorphosed into butterflies!!! It was only two weeks ago, I saw those eight caterpillars completely covering my parsley plants and devouring them before my eyes. If I hadn’t been teaching a lesson on bugs, butterflies and creepy crawlers, I would have destroyed those pests for eating my plants. But You showed me that there was a lesson in those little yellow and black striped low-life! I just didn’t realize that I probably would get more out of the lesson than my preschoolers!


Monday before breakfast I was with the kids out on the playground, we were surprised to see the sunflowers seeds we had planted probably 6 weeks ago were finally in full glorious bloom! Those tiny seeds that were each planted with love grew into giants well above each child’s head! Now we’ve been watching butterflies and bees hang out on the bright cheerful flowers!  To top of that sight, we walked into class and discovered two big beautiful black butterflies with yellow markings fluttering around in our jar! I’m not sure who was more excited- me or the children! After sharing them with everyone, we went outside and set them free…joyfully waving goodbye! We’re always on the lookout for them flying around! We studied how many times those tiny caterpillars eat so much that their skin cracks open and they shed their old skin before they ever form the chrysalis. That shell covers the mysterious miracle that takes that same life and transforms it into a whole new lovely creature that can fly… and spread life from one flower to the next!


Father, You have given us such a beautiful object lesson in how we leave behind our old life and are transformed or born again into a miraculous spirit-filled life that soars with You! It requires us to feed on You and Your word until our old thoughts, ideas and way of life cannot be contained with all we have in You! We must keep shedding those old ways and leave them behind as they are no longer needed. As we grow and mature in You, we become new all over again and again until these bodies one day will no longer contain what You have placed inside of us!  Jesus is making all things new…including me! Lord, I want to fly with Jesus!








“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come”                       2 Corinthians 5:17


“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who by the power that enables Him to bring everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like His glorious body. Therefore, my brothers, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, that is how you should sand firm in the Lord, dear friends!”      Philippians3:20-4:1


“And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, ‘Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and He will dwell with them. They will be His people, and God Himself will be with them and be their God.  ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.’ He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.’ ”    Revelation 21:3-5

July 29, 2015

Most beautiful Heavenly Father,


As I sat down in the quiet cool of the morning on my back patio to spend time with You, I was immediately surrounded by You- the Great I AM! Encompassed by Your immeasurable presence, the word “always” kept popping up in my heart:

*You are ALWAYS here! Even when I am busy and involved in work, play, circumstances…You never ever leave me. You are always waiting for me to be still with You and realize who You are. Your thoughts never leave me even when my thoughts wander from You!

*You are ALWAYS the Great I AM! Your power and authority never change or lessen. You made all the gargantuan galaxies and tiniest molecules- even those we have never discovered yet! Everything that is- was made by Your word, and everything that lives came to life through Your holy breath!  Nothing or no one has more power than You- all things must answer to You!

*You are ALWAYS love! Your love is so much more than we can ever wrap our feeble minds around. Your love determines all that You do…for You are love! Your love is far more powerful than a mother’s love, a daddy’s love, a romantic love, a friendship love, a grandparent’s love. In fact, we would never be capable of love if not for You!

*You are ALWAYS at work! You are always making things new; molding and creating us to be all You know we can be- all You designed us to be! Yet You see fit to limit Your power to work within the confines of our free will (which You saw fit to give us!) You are ALWAYS knitting together our mistakes, weaknesses and even the hard situations in our lives to make something far more beautiful and glorious than we could ever imagine or think to ask for!

*You are ALWAYS faithful! You never forget us; never leave us; never reject us; never give up on us…It is Your deepest desire that not even one should perish but have eternal life that You freely give to us even when we were sinners. You long to have every single one of Your precious children with You forever and ever…yet out of love, You give us a choice. You are faithful to us ALWAYS- even when we are not faithful to You.

*You are ALWAYS waiting…waiting for us to realize who made us, who loves us and who completes us. You wait for us to accept the newness of eternal life given through Jesus Christ. You wait for us to grow in maturity and holiness of Christ. You wait for us to stop and be still with You- to spend time sharing our hearts and lives with You. You wait for us to learn through all the circumstances we go through. You wait for us to share Your hope. And You wait for the day we leave this earth and step into the true Home You have prepared for us…where there will be no more waiting because we will share in the unspeakable joy of being with You ALWAYS!




“And surely I am with you ALWAYS, to the very end of the age.”     Matthew 28:20


“Before the mountains were born or You brought forth the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.”    Psalm 90:2


“’I am the Alpha and Omega,’ says the Lord God, ‘who is, and who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.’”    Revelation 1:8